I have been struggling with my weight for the past year. From June 2020 to September 2020, I was able to drop 17# through eating cleaner, no sugar and no snacking between meals. This amounted to about 1 pound per week and seemed healthy and sustainable. My A1C dropped from 6.1% to 5.9%.
Around mid October 2021, I started to fall off the wagon and found my weight climbing back up to 185# by Thanksgiving. I crossed 190# in January 2021. Gaining about three quarters of a pound per week.
Since then it has been a roller coaster of crossing 195#, panicking and approaching 190#. This is not sustainable or healthy.
The expression is 99% is a bitch and 100% is a breeze. My undoing felt like the following:
- I am at a healthy weight now, a Snickers bite sounds good
- Lots of good treats for dessert, I will have a bite
- I can't believe, I am past 190#, I will have to start exercising more when the weather warms up
- It is just a brownie bite
- I will start tomorrow fresh
These are common excuses and certainly a mental sticking point. The fact of the matter then and now is that I cannot exercise my way thin. It is OK to be hungry. I am still learning how to have a healthy relationship with food. Hurdles aside, I do not need sugar to be happy. When I avoid sugar, my gut health is improved, I am less bloated, I feel fresh and energetic. When my weight is lower, I can perform pull-ups, hand stand push-ups and other body weight exercises successfully. I can run faster. When my metabolic profile is improved, I am more likely to live healthier longer.
I need to approach a healthy relationship with food one day at a time. I can be more useful to my fellows if I have a higher strength to weight ratio. I can bring happiness to my family if they are not worried about my health and wellbeing.
I can wake up everyday and have a plan for my meals. A breakfast of under 500 calories, a sandwich and piece of fruit for lunch, a dinner of vegetables and meats. If I am hungry before dinner, I need to have a salad. If I am hungry after dinner, that is OK and I can have a larger breakfast.